On a train up north
Sitting on a train, listening to music. I just spent a weekend in Stockholm visiting some friends and had a really good time with great company! Its been a great and needed getaway. Sometime I think it is necessary to get some distance to be able to get some time to properly disconnect from everything and relax. A frozen lake surrounded by tall pinetrees is passing by outside my window. The woman next to me is sleeping, now and then someone is walking by outside of the kupé, a woman is shouting and cursing the train. It is a long ride. On the way home on wednesday I will travel for over 14 hours before im back home in Markaryd.
Still I am excited. From monday til wednesday I will be attending a SIDA-preparing-course for my MFS-scholarship in Härnösand. Besides looking forward to the course I also find it exciting to be this far up in Sweden (400km north of Stockholm). I almost feel a bit ashamed to admit, since I am from and have been living in Sweden most of my life, that this is the first time I am further north than Stockholm.
Still spending most of my time to doing research for my project. I keep finding more and more information and thinking of new theories to use in the thesis. I do really feel that I need to be assigned a mentor in Sweden now since I can feel myself having trouble to choose what theories are relevant for the thesis, I want to research everything!! And would also like to discuss the different methods I will be using.
To be honest, when I did get the scholarship, I got a bit (a lot!) nervous and thought "oh my, what have I given myself into?" I came to the realization that I might haven taken on to much. I understood that the projectplan I wrote is very broad and that the project I want to do probably wont be possible to do for one person in the planned timeperiod. But now I changed my mind. Like flipping from tail to head. 180 degress. I still think the thesis and the research I want to do is too big to do in the estimated time and for just one person but whatever. Since when have I ever let the impossible stop me? To be able to spell impossible you must have possible. I might make some adjustments to the plan but mostly I will try to stick to it and it will be great. I will put my heart, my soul and all the time I have to make this my best work so far - and I know it will be.
And speaking of this course, it will be fun to meet other people who got the scholarships and hear about their upcoming thesises. And yeah, well awesome.
Love S.