Tafih

You know when you cant really be asked doing what you need to do and everything just start to pile up? Not because you dont want to but because you dont have any strength left in your body or when you are trying the lack of focus force you to give up.

Well, I kinda been feeling like that for a while. Some kind of exhaustion that completly possessed my body and my mind. It have gone so far that at this point my main focus is the close the door when I am leaving the apartment, - no, not lock, I am happy if I just close it. I have recently returned to my apartment to find the front door wide opened just to realize I probably forgot to close it, to actually lock it will be next on the to-do list.

 

The to-do list is long, and there are more than one. The problem with to-do lists is that even the fun stuff seems like a shore cause they are on the list.

Less then 8 weeks now though, then a lot of the items will be crossed off (although new stuff will be added) and hopefully then it will calm to to a more manageable pace.

 

Still lovin life though! Even when everything seems to go wrong I suprise myself by meeting a smile of true joy in the mirror. Cause happiness does not come from the outside world, it comes from within yourself. It took me almost 26 years to realize that (after searching for it everywhere in the world, in other people and praying to every God known to mankind to grant me it!) and it requires constant reminding but the joy from the inside and the peace in my heart make all the work leading up to it worth it.

 

Love S.